Long time no see???????
Honestly I don’t know what happened. Why I haven’t been posting for a while. Whether it is the bulimia, the cutting, quiting my job or getting dumped by a man that finally showed me that I was capable of having feelings.
Lets just say that a lot of shitty things has happened, including me turning 19 november 22th. It was a shitty day.
Well lets speed things up and explain some of the things that have happened by making a list.
Under no circumstances will I ever again
- Date a boy who is confused about who he is
- Date a boy who only want to have “a nice time” once in a while
- Make someone a favor without knowing that the person won’t return the favor if the have the option
- Drink heavily to days in a row
- Let a guy cum inside my ass, without knowing that that son of a bitch respects me
- Throw of because of a fuckboy
- Self harm because of a fuckboy
- Use time on my flaky friends
- Use time on my fucking shit family who makes me ashamed because I’m gay, and just make me feel wrong for being who I am
- Spend my birthday with people who don’t care about me
- Spend my birthday at my mom’s place
- Let myself get fat again
- Lying about who I am
- Do things I don’t want to do
- Depend on anyone but myself
Basically I just hate everyone but somehow survive because I for some reason is a strong person.
Anyway I’m going to London tomorrow with my best friend, and it is going to be amazing.